The trouble with starting a blog

Several weeks ago, I decided I wanted to start a blog. Yes, SEVERAL weeks ago. Here's what happened: I decided to let my "analytical self" take over and began studying up on blogging. (Almost every time I listen to those "left brain" thoughts in my mind I regret it. It's so much more fun to let my "right brain" take over and run wild.) But, no. I studied... and studied. I searched and searched online for tips, tools, advice on what blogging platform to use.... then I came across an article, no a LIBRARY of articles about making money with a blog. That's when the poison set in. Before I knew it, I was neck deep in literature about positioning your Google AdSense correctly, linking to commission based websites, driving traffic to your blog.... and I had entirely forgotten why I wanted to start blogging in the first place.

Oh! It's because I wanted to write! I remember now... yeah... Well, needless to say, my brain hurt from an overload of information on the topic and one night I finally shut my computer and forced myself to take a break for a few days on my "research". I realized that while making money from a blog is a wonderful thought, it really doesn't work out for most people. I'm not degrading the information that's out there... I'm sure it works when perfectly executed.... but, I'm no computer genius. And while I plan to eventually do a little more research and look into my options... I'm not going to let the idea of money prolong my blogging any further.

Besides, if no one is reading my blog yet, what's the point of placing ad banners? (And I'm sure no one is reading yet.) I will eventually try to spread the word about my blog and attract readers more fervently. But, in the mean time, I should probably get some content on here first :) After reading so much "advice" online, I was so scared to use the wrong platform or start a "general" blog not narrowed down to a particular subject. (Apparently those aren't as lucrative.) But, I want to blog about me and things that I love. And, I cannot do that in a narrow subject frame. So, if ya don't like something I blog about... sorry! Look at the labels and choose a subject that intrigues you. I plan to categorize everything I write. Alright? Alright!

Writing, how I love thee!

Well, here we are. I am officially a blogger. Why didn't I start this sooner? I mean, writing is one of the things in my life that brings me PURE JOY. There are so many things I enjoy... but writing and making music... well those 2 just bypass everything else by miles. I can't even begin to describe what it feels like when words or music is pouring from my being. It feels like years of inspiration and creative thoughts are being held captive inside of my soul, building up until I can longer contain them... and when I finally get the opportunity- what a sweet release!

Hours seem like mere seconds when I am sitting on my piano bench; relishing the sounds of my imagination evolving into a mellifluous story on the keys. A story which may change direction at my whim, which follows the path of my choosing. There are no rules. Only creativity.

I sometimes feel that inspiration is calling out to me from every possible source, every second of the day, threatening to overload my brain. Perhaps it is a gift. Perhaps everyone hears it as I do, but they do not listen. Me, I cannot help but listen. Whether it is the rustling of the trees, or a child laughing... I hear song. Sometimes it is deafening. I want so desperately to give in to its calling. And yet, I tell myself, "There's no time for that! You have work to do... there's a "to do" list waiting... a schedule to keep!" It's so easy for life to become a rush.

I never realized as a young person, how much precious time I had on my hands for creativity. I didn't know that someday I would be too busy to spend half of my day writing music. As we get older, life gets so much more hectic. It has been years since I have allowed myself to get lost in my writing... even for an hour. Well, no more. This blog will finally give me the "permission" I have so long needed to give in to those creative voices inside my head.

Ah... writing, my lost companion... I have returned to you.