Which is why I haven't been on to blog in awhile.
God is awesome. Throughout the last 4 months- well, the last 2 1/2 years actually... my faith wavered quite a few times. Initially I was very confident that He had a master plan and would work everything for good. But lately, I had really began to question if God cared where we were... if He was paying attention to the fact that Nick needed another job... if we would EVER find a place of our own to live...
Of course He knew exactly where we were all the time. My patience is so short sometimes and I so easily forget God's faithfulness. I would not blame God one bit for being exasperated with me. A few months ago, Nick looked at me and said, "You know, if I were God, I'd probably hit me over the head and say "What in the world is wrong with you?!?! Don't you get it?? I keep telling you the same things over and over!!!"" I smiled and responded, "Well, do you feel that way towards Benjamin?" Nick smiled back and answered, "You're right! I never feel like smacking him and giving up on him! I still just want to love on him and encourage him that he'll eventually 'get it'."
We're just human- and yet we have so much love and compassion for OUR children... can you imagine how much more God feels that way towards us? His patience is incredible.
Basically what's happened is: God has restored our house and Nick's job.
Nick transferred to a different location in GE (to be closer to home and have 1st shift hours.) The new location turned out to be a horrible work environment. He was so miserable while there and he ended up leaving. We were living on savings for a few months and wondering when Nick would find something else. He had a few offers out of town and we were praying about that.... we put out fleece after fleece about numerous jobs and God always let us know it wasn't meant to be. It's great when God answers you, but the answer "no" can get frustrating after awhile. Soon, I was wondering if anything was ever going to work out. Of course, timing is EVERYTHING, right? :)
God's timing was perfect. January came, and Nick's old job wanted him back. Since we have a baby due in 8 wks. I told Nick we HAD to get our own place. (We'd been living with my parents for about 9 months.) We were making arrangements to move into a rental within a couple of days when we got a phone call. The investment company we sold our house to wanted to sign it back over to us- for NOTHING. Nope, not kidding. Apparently, after buying our house 2 1/2 years ago, the economy had gotten worse and they'd had no luck getting a tenant's loan approved to purchase the property. Since the title was in their name a little too long for the bank's comfort, the bank declared fraud on them with our loan and they were forced to hand it back over to us.
Soooo... if they had called a few days later, we would have already signed another contract and been in a bind. But, God KNEW that, didn't He? He DID have a master plan- a WAY better one than I could ever think up. Now, we are in our house again that we OWN, it's exactly the size and location that we need, there's a great park for Benjamin, we have our own yard.... I am just so overwhelmed at God's blessings on us! He knew what we needed, and He knew what we needed to go through in order to appreciate it. There is a gratefulness in my heart now for my house and Nick's job that wasn't there before. The experience was difficult, but so worth it.
These days I'm just busy, busy, busy preparing the house for the baby's arrival. The cleaning, unpacking, painting, decorating... etc. pretty much takes up my days. I'm NESTING big time! *btw- if you have a Gospel Assembly church phone book from a few years ago, that's our address (again) :)*
Everything is GREAT with the pregnancy! And- gotta slip 1 more praise report in here: Would you believe this house is in the SAME condition as when we left it?? Better, actually. The guy who lived here built shelving in the closets and garage. The paint on the walls is even the same. I just can't get over how amazing God is. He really gave me the desire of my heart- and I honestly didn't even know what it was.
Luke 6:38 "Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."
God really knows how to "press down" and "shake together" a blessing, doesn't He?
He is SO good.